Leave Me Standing Alone

Lizz Wright.

SO unheard of. So AMAZING!

There are artists I come across from time to time who really speak to me. Most of these artists are worship artists. Lizz Wright however is not. She wrights and sings about life. Check it out...

You wanna go back
I'd rather not
Gave you all I had
Gave you all I got to give
You had my time
Trusted my soul
But it'd be the same thing
Til I grow old
I wanna get higher
But you made me low
You made me wonder
Which was to go
It could've been good
Instead it was wrong
All I want from you
Is leave me standing alone


She continues to talk about how she had to find her own life and get free from the influence of others. Can the church say A-MEN?!

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You know what I'm learning? All of our walks are different. My walk SHOULD look different than yours right? Seeing as how our destinies are not the same. You know what else I'm learning? To appreciate the walks of others. You NEVER know where someone has come from. You NEVER know what someone is going through. It's funny because we think that we can understand even our closest friends, but there are things within all of us that we can't even articulate. Pain. Disappointment. Grief. Heartache. All of these things cause one person's walk to look different than another. My experiences will cause my exhibited behavior to be different than yours. For example, I've never had an earthly father in my life. Thus, relationships, trust, and acceptance have dominated much of my thinking. In the past if you wanted to break me, take my relationships. They defined me. They told me who I was. If I had secure friendships, I was secure. If my friendships were shaky, I was shaky. No more. I still love my relationships. I am one who thinks you can never show too much love. However, inevitably, most relationships will fail. People grow and change. Relationships fade. I love my life these days because when relationships fizzle, I don't. I am still aware of who I have been made to be and who I am working on becoming. I honor those who understand even though our journeys are different, they are both to be respected.

This takes me back to Lizz Wright. She wrote about how she wanted only one thing from some of the people in her life, and that was to be left alone. If you can't understand the choices I've made, if you're not willing to pray my strength and help me stand, if you look down your nose and judge, if you call my desire to go higher self righteousness, if you call my resistance to being average pride, leave me standing here all by myself.

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I am just a servant of the Lord. Lord cleanse me of pride, self righteousness, and an unwilling spirit. We are all called..correction, the body of Christ has been called to love those who even hate you. Help those who can't help themselves. Give to those who are too prideful to ask for what you offer from your hands. Pray for those who are too good to say hello. No matter how successful I ever become, no matter how tired I am of walking a lonely walk, I will always be a servant. I will work to be empty of my own desires, and to be filled with the desires of my father. I will always smile at you. I will extend my hand. I will extend my heart. And I will forever need the forgiveness and grace of God to cover and cleanse me of my unrighteousness. I am just a servant, dedicated to put aside my feelings for the purpose of the Lord.

So today, because I am not defined by anyone other than my creator, if you don't understand my choice to take up a servant's walk, I guess it'd be okay if you let me stand right here, by myself.

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Side note: Why folks gotta act nice, dress appropriately, and put on holiness cuz it's Sunday and they just got outta church? Have you forgotten that there are six other days in the week. I'm just sayin....