All In A Day

Hey folks,

So keeping up to date with BLU21...

We will be playing in Jamaica!! Whoohooo. So our friends are pretty big supporters of our band, so word got around to Sis. Kitty about BLU21 and that's all she needed to hear. She keeps mentioning that we will be playing at the camp and she can't wait to hear us. I can't wait for her to hear us either. I can't wait to play and sing with those kids. I really pray that God will use our music. Someone described our sound as pure and when I think of "pure" I think about very honest and open...I pray that this music will touch the hearts of people. Stix and I have kinda been on a little break, but not intentionally. We are both working pretty much non-stop and it's hard to find a time to just play like we used to. We would both just be chillin at the house talkin and would just start playin out the blue (out the BLU21 that is LOL, that really wasn't all that funny), and we would come up with our songs. Now we actually have to schedule times to rehearse. We tried that before but it didn't work...lol...but we got it this time. Saturday night; 1 solid hour. I'll let you know how it goes.

Now for last night. I went to this service at Born Again. It was pretty awesome. MIHI (Made In His Image) is having a conference this week and are having some really great events. I love to see men pouring their spiritual knowledge into other men and encouraging each other. There is not nearly enough of that among men, nor among women, so it's great to see people working so hard to make that change. After the service we were chillaxin for a bit and then realized...hey..Cece is still here. Maybe we can talk to her!! But first Sabrina decided to do me a favor...she screamed Leanne Palmore's name so she'd stop and talk. Now I call this a favor because I freaking love Leanne Palmore. Her voice is so incredible, and although most people I know don't actually know who she is...I don't care cuz she's still incredible. Her voice has so much feeling in it. Now I don't know her in real life...like everyday off the stage kinda life...but hey, maybe I don't need to. I just really LOVE to hear and see her sing.

So after talkin with Leanne something happened that I will never forget in my entire life...although I can't really remember all the details because my mind was not with me. I mean it all happened so fast. Like...I was just standing there one minute and then the next minute my whole perceptual take on my environment kinda shifted into this skewed arrangement of random people and objects in my peripheral vision as my focus was captured by none other than...Cece freakin Winans man!! Sabrina was in her car (actually it's a 'Rover) talkin to her and I was standing with Melissa, Stix, and another lady from church. We were just talkin about all of a sudden the passenger side window rolled down, Cece leaned out and goes..."Stix and Anjelica." Now this is what Stix heard. I coulda swore I heard her say "hey Anjelica, hey Stix" but I could be sooo wrong. In fact, I'm pretty sure that I'm wrong. Y'all I don't know. So here where you need to pay attention, because this is where I stopped. Remember the lady from church I told you that we were talking to..yea, she dissipated into thin air. She was right there and then, well, I just didn't see her no more. Then Stix RAN. I mean, she turned around and freakin ran in the other direction. Ok...so that was the last I saw of Stix. And Melissa, well, I knew she was there cuz I think I heard her snickering at us...but I couldn't see her. All I saw was Cece.

Let me clarify, I am not idolizing Cece okay? She is incredible and she believes in prayer, purity, holiness, and worship. PLUS her voice...amazing. Her stage presence...amazing. Her new hair cut...fly. Her make-up...flawless. So this encompassment of holiness, amazingness, fly hair, a voice like no other (you're getting the picture right), I was struck man.

Ok, so then so goes..."is that y'alls real names?" I was like..."my name is Anjelica...that's Jessica." I remember pointing in the direction that I last saw Jessica, but I had no idea where she actually was. I did not take my eyes off Cece for probably a whole minute...I'm talkin bout I didn't even blink! I'm so embarrassed thinking about it now because I know that I looked like a straight-up star struck fan. Shoot I AM a fan. I wish I coulda seen my face...cuz I know...there was NO expression...blank. I just KNOW it!

You'll be pleased to know that after that minute of skewed perception my wits came back and I was able to move. I moved to look through the window at Sabrina. Later Sabrina said that she told Cece that we loved her...hmm...but I have a feeling that's not all she said, right Sabrina? LOL The only reason I think this is because Sabrina told Leanne that I follow her runs, I saw her in the mall and was thrilled...but honey I love Leanne too much to be embarrassed by that. So I didn't care...and she coulda told Cece anything, I still don't care.

Melissa somehow got to my right side...how? I don't know. I think she floated over there (y'all she could have turned into a bunny and hopped over there, and then turned BACK into Melissa...I would not have noticed it). Melissa then tells Cece how we're in MSK and Cece gives this little "whooo MSK" call thingy. And then I forgot was else everybody was saying. Fast forward to the end of the conversation..."it was so nice to meet you." By that time I could talk...so I said something of the effect of it was nice to meet you too. Where the HECK was Jessica??!! Then we said bye...well I assumed we did, cuz I can't really remember.

All in all, it was a hilarious, great couple of minutes. I love Cece Winans LMBO!

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Fast forward to today.

I work at the counseling place and have been putting in some real hours here outside of my other job. I see quite a lot in terms of people and how they behave in certain situations and around certain people. I also see people who can't control how they behave...or choose not to. SO, today a married couple came in for counseling and they didn't even sit on the same side of the ROOM. I don't know how long they've been married or anything...I didn't read their file. BUT they would not look at each, sit near each other, nothing. Then she came up to the window to ask a question and she had the BIGGEST rock on her finger man. Girl, money don't solve not one problem with the heart.

That got me thinkin about marriage. Only very recently have I been thinking about what it would be like to be married. A lot of my friends from high school, and now college are married. What would I be like married? Would I be attentive to my husband? Would I put him before me? Would we pray together everyday? How fine EXACTLY will he be? LOL How happy could I make him on a daily basis?

I have not seriously dated since high school...and then I only dated one guy....during my entire high school life. I mean...I've gone out on dates, but never interested in a serious relationship. (Foolishly dating for no reason has lead to a whole bunch of annoying boys who I've had to be quite rude to...all my fault though). Has that changed now? I don't know.

I believe that God is teaching me every day. Preparing me for the time when I will be married. I am learning the importance of order, submission, and holiness. And it's so funny cuz God will use the most unlikely people to teach me things that I will carry for the rest of my life.

All Anjelica knows is she ain't bout to rush. I want to be under full direction of God, because the last thing in the world that I want is to end up like this couple sitting in the office in front of me right now, pretending that the other does not exist. Now they are making an attempt to work on their relationship...otherwise they would not be here. But still, I want to get it right. I want to be the first person in my family to get it right (nope, the Crawfords havn't had a successful marriage yet...and I have a big family...plenty of chances). I will be different. God says I will be different.

~Call me jeL~

...or Anjelica, or Jelly (which is most popular) :)