Watch Your Life to See Where It's Going

So I've returned from Jamaica. I have good and not-so-good feelings about this.

The good:

I get to see my family and friends again. I know I was only gone like 10 days, but it fa real felt like a month. Not because I didn't enjoy myself, but because I was constantly moving.

I get to tell my stories and share my battle scars (mosquito bites :) with everyone.

The bad:

I miss the kids and the other young adults so bad. They were really refreshing to me. Their love for God made me feel at home. I could have stayed so much longer.

I'm not on the salt water beach, jumping waves, and feeling the sun on my skin.

I'm not enjoying all the free food and drinks I want. A girl could get use to that.


So this is where I am: kinda lost. I have known for a really long time that God did not mean for me to stay in one place. I was 16 the first time I left the country for an extended period of time. Unlike all of my classmates, I was not homesick. I was amazed by the history and architecture of France. I could have traveled those old cobblestone streets forever. BUT, eventually it came time for me to go home. I moved to a different part of the country when I was 17 for college and I can count on one hand the number of times I've been homesick.

I know what you're thinking. That I'm a cold hearted young one who does not care for her family. Not true. I love my family so much!! But, it is true that I begin to feel uncomfortable if I'm in the same place for too long, and that uncomfortableness turns into dissatisfaction. I LOVE Nashville. I want to start my family and grow old here. But meanwhile, I have this desire to go to the corners of the Earth and share God and education with kids who were never thought to have had a chance. I know that this is a God-given desire, and this is why I can be so okay with being in places I've never been and being around people I don't know. I love to watch people and learn from them. I find the best place to do that is somewhere you've never been.

So anyway, for a while I've really been thinking about working with a non-profit organization in Australia called Mission Australia. I've made several contacts there and even found a department in which I could work, granting that the government renews the grants for this educational program. Now other opportunities may be on the horizon and you know what? I've realized that I'll go anywhere God tells me to. I have no problem relocated, as long as I can eventually come home to Nashville. This desire is growing, which makes me think that a change is soon to come.

I've known so many people that do not end up doing what they dreamed because they did not move when they had the chance. I don't want to end up working some mediocre job that I dread going to every morning because I didn't seize an opportunity that was afforded to me.

So what it is Anjelica? Whats the confusion about? I need to hear from God. I want to know where He wants me to go. I know that He is preparing me. I don't know when, and I don't know where but I know that I will be listening to God intently. (Jeremiah 11:29)

So I am planning to write about my experience in Jamaica, but not in this blog. I am still reflecting, praying, and even fasting (today) about the whole thing. I refuse to experience something so great and leave it without getting everything from it that God desires for me to have. So stay tuned for Jamaica from my point of view.


Watch your life to see where it's going ~Maxlene Joy, Jamaica

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